Sunday, September 27, 2009 ♥
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Didn't have mood to update my blog because of a matter,
so I will just type it out for someone.
I didn't say that everything is your fault. I did stand in your shoes and think why you will come out with all this things. You said you need friends' concern,like a random call or a "hi,how are you". Yes,you will sometimes send me a random msg. I admit,I am at fault for not giving you a random msg. You said can give a random msg "hi,how are you?" on msn. You ask yourself out of 10 times,how many times you appearing offline. If you are appearing offline,should n't you be the one to come & initiate the chat 1st? Yes,you need friends' concern. But what about me? Aren't I a human? Doesn't I need friends' concern too? Last time you don't read my blog. Then what does this means? Do you concern about me? Even if you that time didn't read,I also didn't say anything. But you know what? I read your blog everytime when I got use comp. Whenever I saw your blog abt emo things,I will ask you what's the reason. You say that you will think of negative things when no one concern abt you. Then what abt me? When sth happened to me & I did write in blog, you also didn't concern,didn't ask. Then how do I feel then? I know you have your own problems,do I ask you to care for me or what when I am feeling down?
You mean you don't need time to think abt sth? Then why do you use such a long time to think when you had problems with ****? This also shows that you alr had an answer that you want to give up on that friendship with **** at that time. But in the end,you think for very long & changed your answer & then you hold on to that friendship with ****.
I really need time to consider. You said by the time when I got the answer,you can't promise what as I lose the chance alr. Don't you think that time can let ppl change their decisions? Don't you think that time is important to decide the outcome? You said you are wondering that if we are friends,we should be can tolerate friends' behaviours & character. Didn't I tolerate yours for many years alr? You think. I know you had tolerated me for not planning & organise outings,always you are the one doing it. Then you ask yourself, didn't I tolerate your behaviours & character too?
Your answer to "What are friends to me?"
"To me, friends will be always there whenever i need care and concern. help each other up. listening ear. understanding. patience. accompany. always there for me. "
I know I am not always there for you when you need care & concern,but you ask yourself,
are you always there for me when I need care & concern? Help each other up? You asked me to buy magazines for you. I went to buy for your sake,knowing that you will be very eager to see the magazine. Even went to your hse to pass you. Aren't this care & concern for you? Concern abt your feelings?
I am not trying to say that I am nice or what,but I am just defending for myself.
Didn't I give you listening ear? Everytime when you want to say sth,I am always listening.
Aren't I understanding enough? I admit,I am not understanding enough. Don't understand your needs & wants. But when I receive your msg,it's because you wanted to tell me sth abt your idol & then you will ask questions to ask how I am doing. Sorry,I can't be there 24 hours for you. If that's the friend you need & want,sorry I am not up to it.
Patient? You said this:"i m not tat generous and patient". Since you said that friends should be have patience,then why are you not being patient now?
Accompany? I still rmb,there was once someone put you aeroplane,I said I can go & acc you to do what you wanted to. But in the end,you asked ***** to acc you & said I can don't have to acc you alr.
Always there for you? I ask you, is there really a friend that can ALWAYS be there for you When you need someone? The answer is NO. There is no friend that can ALWAYS 24 hour there for you. If you say that you have a friend that can be there for you 24 hours,sorry,I guess I am not the friend you are looking for,cause I can't be there for you 24 hours.
But even though can't always be there, but at least will try to be there by using other methods.
My answer is about the same as you. Friends should be there when you need care & concern. But this only applies when the person know that you are sad or troubled,or when you need someone to talk to. If the person don't know(if you hide it well), then can't really blame the person. I agree that friends be lend listening ear,must be understanding & patience. Then why can't you understand that I also have my own problems & that I am not feeling any good either?
When I had problems, I hope you could at least ask or what,but you didn't do that frequently too. Except for 1 matter that I rmb vividly. That time when you & ***** called me to discuss abt my things.
You said this:"u can treat ur friends so nice. meet up with them often. why can’t we?"
I didn't say that I treat friends nice. Meet up with them often? I didn't meet up with them often when schooling,except for poly friends. I am in the same sch as my poly friends,of course I will interact with them more. As for you,aren't you doing the same thing as me too?
You said that when we meet up,you are talking most of the time,but I am only there to listen. Little words from me regarding my life. Since you say abt this,I should tell you my reasons.
It's because you think too much as compared to me. You need more attention.Thus when you said things regarding your life,I will only listen. If you seldom read my blog,then what thing do you want me to share with you? If you didn't read my blog not because you are busy,but because you don't have the interest,then why should I tell you things abt my life? I know recently you have been reading my blog,but last time you really very seldom read. I don't expect you to read it everyday. Since you said we rarely meet up,then you will read my blog often to know what happened to me,shouldn't you?Yes,we meetup is so rare,I should be have alot of things to say to you, but if I got a feeling that you don't have the interest to know what's going on in my life, then of course I will just shut my mouth. I won't say to irritate you.
You said this:"to a lot of ppl. they will feel tat i m a bad friend to u all. but how abt u all??? “NICE FRIENDS” mayb ba. i always acting as a devil friend. wat can i sae?"
Don't you think that you are being really sarcastic by saying "NICE FRIENDS?" Since you said I am not a nice friend,then why will you still want to be friends with me?
I just need time to think. Can't you even let me think? You said time don't wait for people. I am asking you to wait if you don't want to.
Everytime when I read your blog,I have a bad omen & it's really accurate.
Last but not least,did you say that I am brainless?
It's 6.25am & still I have not slp.
@6.27AM
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